Oblivion you are my best friend.  Your sweet cushion of absolute nothingness quiets my soul.  I look for you in every second of every day.  I take part in the sweet moments of life.  The joys of motherhood.  The milestones, birthdays, holidays, the quiet moments when things are soothing.  When those moments go away, I look for you at every turn.  I want to disappear.  Sink into the darkness that you provide.